I’m really tired of trying to make you love me.
You said that you were always happy to see me, hear from me or be with me even if you didn’t show it. 1) Why wouldn’t you show it? And 2) If anything you went out of your way to show me the complete opposite.
I broke up with you because I recognized that I need and deserve more than what I was getting from our relationship. It was a break up. But once again, I let you stare sadly, lament on unspoken love and convince me that what we have is real and honest and beyond anything that I can ever imagine; that you just didn’t know how to express just how much you really love me. Really? REALLY??? Because all that lasted less than 2 weeks.
So then it’s just a break. Just a breather so I can just take some time to myself and figure out what I’m doing. At the same time, I used this to see how you’d treat me with us not being ‘officially together’. Would you go out of your way to show me you love me? Would you consistently put more effort into making me feel that our relationship and progression as a couple was a priority to you? No? Oh, right, I forgot who I was talking about. You’re right back to where you were. You’ve stopped trying. Stopped caring.
Which means everything you told me, everything you said about me being such an amazing person that you loved so much; you having nothing without me; me being the top of your priority list; how nothing matters to you more than making us work were all just lies to get me to take you back.
I thought that I didn’t care about how you made me feel, because I just loved you that much. I thought that as long as I had you things weren’t so bad. Then I realized how stupid that was. Guess what, you’re not enough. In fact, I need a lot more than what you can give me – which wasn’t a lot to begin with. I dedicated every inch of my life to you and have gotten nothing but heartache, rejection and insecurity in return. I thought we could make this work, but you busted it from day one. I’m not sorry for anything. I now see that I was right all along. You really just wanted someone, anyone to come home to. Hope you’re happy now.
You can find another date to that military dinner. Maybe you can take one of your army friends you like having picnics on the beach with – oh yea, I saw that.
You said that you were always happy to see me, hear from me or be with me even if you didn’t show it. 1) Why wouldn’t you show it? And 2) If anything you went out of your way to show me the complete opposite.
I broke up with you because I recognized that I need and deserve more than what I was getting from our relationship. It was a break up. But once again, I let you stare sadly, lament on unspoken love and convince me that what we have is real and honest and beyond anything that I can ever imagine; that you just didn’t know how to express just how much you really love me. Really? REALLY??? Because all that lasted less than 2 weeks.
So then it’s just a break. Just a breather so I can just take some time to myself and figure out what I’m doing. At the same time, I used this to see how you’d treat me with us not being ‘officially together’. Would you go out of your way to show me you love me? Would you consistently put more effort into making me feel that our relationship and progression as a couple was a priority to you? No? Oh, right, I forgot who I was talking about. You’re right back to where you were. You’ve stopped trying. Stopped caring.
Which means everything you told me, everything you said about me being such an amazing person that you loved so much; you having nothing without me; me being the top of your priority list; how nothing matters to you more than making us work were all just lies to get me to take you back.
I thought that I didn’t care about how you made me feel, because I just loved you that much. I thought that as long as I had you things weren’t so bad. Then I realized how stupid that was. Guess what, you’re not enough. In fact, I need a lot more than what you can give me – which wasn’t a lot to begin with. I dedicated every inch of my life to you and have gotten nothing but heartache, rejection and insecurity in return. I thought we could make this work, but you busted it from day one. I’m not sorry for anything. I now see that I was right all along. You really just wanted someone, anyone to come home to. Hope you’re happy now.
You can find another date to that military dinner. Maybe you can take one of your army friends you like having picnics on the beach with – oh yea, I saw that.
