I don’t want a call, or your words in a text or even an apology. All I wanted was for you to be there for me when I needed you. I’m always tackling the world head-on, and I just wanted to feel as though I wasn’t on my own for once. Like I have a partner.
I’m feeling unsteady. Emotionally. At least more than usual. This is a big step for me. I’m afraid of change. In my heart I should know that what I’m doing is right. But it’s not about right or wrong anymore. It’s all about time. Which, as we can tell from this, has not always been my strongest suit. I’m always running ahead of everyone or running late. Always running. With you, though, I have a safe haven. A rest stop. Home. My rock in shining ACUs.
But I feel empty. Hurt. I drop everything for you. Bend to your every whim in hopes that you do the same. I may be overly demanding but I have never expected from you anything that I wasn’t willing to do myself. You didn’t ask, but you didn’t have to. I’m here when you need me. I’m here when you don’t. I love you unconditionally. Which is without condition. Meaning, though I am hurting by your hand, I’m not going anywhere I can’t hold it.
